Blog Absences..

I've been a little absent when it comes to blogging and the want to blog.. With the exception of Laura's announcement of a gorgeous baby Carl.

I haven't wanted to blog for fear of saying something that might ruin a relationship. I've become really outspoken lately and I think its getting to the point that I want to scream! :) (I probably won't make too much sense..) But something happened that I really would like to speak my mind but I'm holding back.

I've been doing a lot of soul searching and wanting to better myself. I think it all started with a letter I got from a very special person. This letter reminded me that I deserve to treat myself better and not put myself down so much. I am a good person. I am worth it. This year of 2009 will be a great year. A year of change and bettering. I'm excited.

Every night at work, I think about everything that I am going to change. I get so excited and I'm so pumped up. I have a lot of time to think now at work. I have gone from 6 hrs to 8 for four days a week. So with my mind-dulling work (not really but it doesn't take a lot of thought process) I think and think and plan and plan. Fun stuff.

So I think I'm done babbling.. :) Sometimes a post of randomness is needed.