So its 9:55 and we're already back from church. Want to know why???
CAYDEN
He is SO stinkin crazy and wild. Ever since he has been MOBILE he has been not so fun at church! And its really hard to be there by myself with a crazy one year old! I'm not mad that Adam works Sundays (since no one gets Sundays off except managers!!) its the fact that I can't handle Cayden all by myself. It makes me feel less of a mom. Especially since i live in a ward that is full of snots. I'm sorry but they all are. They look at me like "why can't you control your kid" and ya know what? He's a toddler and can't help but wanna explore and walk in his new cute shoes and babble!!! HE'S ONE!! And most of the ladies that gave me those snotty looks are either single or the moms that don't want babies for a LONG time.. Like in their late 30's cause they're not ready. (Sorry if that offends anyone...) Like one lady is done with school and so is her husband and is probably about 29ish.. (Still in apartments with her husband as a DOCTOR! don't understand why you'd wanna stay in THESE apartments...) Anyway... They are just fake and don't care. I know I havent' been the most active but aren't you suppose to be nice to fellow church members? I try to be.. (except for this one moment...)
So as I'm trying to calm down with a crazy baby going everywhere and chasing after every kid that's in the hall.. I just decided I couldn't take it anymore. I broke down on the way home because I want to be able to sit down and listen to the listen in RS and in Sunday School. I cannot wait til he can be in nursery!!! just 4 more months!!! I think I could handle Sacrament with just me and him but not today. When I was near tears because I felt judged and looked down upon. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I have a ONE YEAR OLD who doesn't know how to just sit and read a book for 3 hours straight! I'm sorry that I'm not as good as other mothers. SO sue me!
So I think I'm done with that rave and rant.. :) Can't wait til Adam's a manager which will be soon (and when I say soon I mean 2-3 years) and I can't wait til Cayden's in nursery which is 4 months! Yep... Can't wait....
