Scared of the Doctor's

So usually I go to the doctor appointments with Adam. Ever since we got married it seems like I can't do anything by myself! Haha.. I'm learning.. THis is step towards it! But anyway.. And right now Adam just got promoted to Full-Time Meat Cutter which as a TON better benefits which means we don't have to pay AS much as we were for the baby and the doctor! So I have to tell them AGAIN that we don't wanna pay an installment cause we're trying to get the insurance changed to the better one. So I'm stressing out.. Adam gives me confidence! But I seem to loose it when I'm not with him..
Anyway.. I also am having pains in my pelvis which on babycenter.com, a lady was saying she had it and it was just "bruising" since the baby is positioning in your pelvis for delivery.. and I was thinking I sure hope thats not what it means that Cayden's positioning to come out!! Heck no, he can't come! He has to stay in there for another EIGHT WEEKS!! I can't have him early, finacially.. emotionally.. physically! My work hasn't even TRIED to hire someone to replace me while i'm gone for a month! They need to get cracking on that! They've had maybe 2 interviews but obviously they didn't work out (I'm not training them!! I'm typing away on here!) Haha..
So basically I'm scared to go to the doctor's today. I have an hour and a half to be nervous.. then a 20 minute drive.. then a wait.. I just gotta breath and everything will be alright. I sure will be able to pee in a cup for the doctor! I have lots of questions to ask but I always forget to ask the doctor when I go. I won't have anything or ONE distracting me this time! So maybe I'll remember.. Doubt it with how nervous I am..

Well I guess I should go and get some work done.. Pray for me.. Haha! I'll probably write another one after the doctor's. :) AHHH!!! The nerves are getting to me..